Tuesday, September 6, 2011

Before you were born

Julia hasn't talked a whole lot about Adria since the accident. Today she finally wanted to talk about her sister. She talked about her throughout the day. One moment we had I feel like I need to write down so that Julia will remember it for the rest of her life when times are hard.
We were reading the picture scriptures about when Joseph Smith was a young boy and had to have surgery on his leg. I told Julia that Joseph's older brothers helped him. I asked if she would help Kara when Kara needed help. She responded quietly, "I think I want to die and go live in Heaven with Adria."
This made me pause. My instinct was to grab her and hold her tight and shout, "Never leave me!!" But I realized that she was dealing with some very real feelings. Luckily, the Spirit stepped in and gave me some guidence. In my talk at the funeral I had felt impressed to share with everyone an experience that Ben and I had regarding Adria's choice to stay on earth. I knew that I needed to share it with Julia as well. I told her that before Adria was born she talked to Heavenly Father and He told her that there were a lot of things that she needed to do in Heaven. Adria asked if she could stay with her family for three years and the Lord agreed. Then He told her that after three years she needed to come back to Heaven to help there.
Then I felt that I needed to share one more thing with Julia. I told her that before she was born, the Lord told her that she needed to come to earth for a long time. He told her that her sister would die and she would be sad. But then He asked Julia if she would stay for a long time on earth. He told her that she needed to help Mommy and Daddy and then she needed to grow up and be a mommy. I told her that she promised Heavenly Father that she would do those things. I asked her if she could still do those things. Julia thought for a minute and then agreed. But, she made me promise that when she grows up to be a mommy, I will come visit her every Friday because she doesn't want to be lonely. I told her that I would do that.
I am so thankful for the gospel and the Holy Ghost and all the direction and comfort that my family has had these past few weeks. I know that the Lord is in charge and we will all return home and live with Him again someday.

1 comments:

rubialocita said...

This is RaLauna Nielson, I went to LDS Business College with Ben. Thanks for sharing your blog! You guys are amazing and are such an example to me. I'm sorry for the loss of your sweet precious daughter, and my heart aches for you. I am so glad that you guys have not let this trial make you bitter, and brought you closer to our Heavenly Father. You guys are in my prayers, with love, RaLauna